Paczki Day

With Chicago in a freezing downward spiral, I too feel the same.

To be more frank and less dramatic about it, my seasonal depression is in full swing and with everyday looking gray and my bedroom being subjected to a constant draft, things aren't quite looking up at this very moment.

Despite this, I figured I should try to focus on things that offer little bits of happiness even if they're not long term because when you're feeling down, it seems far more likely that your mind will glaze over the good things and make everything look as dull an unappealing as the landscape.

Today I found a penny head's up outside of my door so I picked it up and stuck it in my pocket.

I get to start looking for new apartments next month and I could not be more excited.

I'm working on new sewing projects that mean I get to give more patches to sweet people in my life.

I got so excited about Paczki Day that I got all bundled up and went out in the snow so I could sit on the couch and enjoy a slow morning eating pastry, watching X-Files, and drinking coffee that I didn't have to make myself.

I know there are people who are looking out for me no matter what.

I feel like I finally feel motivated enough to start writing again.

Okay, I know this list seems very disjointed already but I'll add one more thought for good measure. I feel like I'm getting far better at saying the things that are on my mind with no remorse. Partially because life is too short to deal with dumb stuff but mostly because I think I've finally realized that I'm worth having good things happen to me and I want any sort of weird confidence I portray to show that.

I'm going to tell you how I actually feel more now.
You should do the same.

I'm going to go take a very hot shower now and hope my exhaustion magically disappears so I have the energy to do the rest of my homework.

I hope your feet aren't cold and that you have plenty of snacks to sustain you through whatever is going on.