Headspace

As of 6:00 PM central time on this chilly early fall, Sunday, I have managed to shower and get warm food into my body in the time that I've been in my apartment and I know I have to start the quickly growing pile of work I have accumulated and let sit untouched but for now, I need a few moments to organize my thoughts.

I spent roughly 25 hours in Hickory Hills, Illinois this weekend and it still felt like a much needed vacation. I'm starting to fully understand the idea that it's not about where you go, but it really is about who you're with.

I'm an anxious person and most of the time it gets in the way of the social life I really desire to but within that, there are moments of absolute clarity and I feel like I'm leading a life like a normal human being. Sometimes in a basement full of strangers, who are really just new friends, with impossibly loud music playing, you will find yourself grinning ear to ear because you can breathe and you feel good and maybe you could use a bit more caffeine in your system but you don't really feel worried about anything.

So here's to wooden forts, sleeping on basement floors, beer and sloppy joe's for dinner, grilled cheese and chocolate shakes for breakfast, holding hands, cracking jokes, making plenty of silly faces, remembering how to sing, and shooting a pellet gun of all things.

I'm pretty sure this weekend is exactly what high-school me thought college was going to be like and I think I'm more than content with that.