Resolutions (day thirteen)

I woke up far too early with a body that seemed to ache all over.
I told my mother that it was nothing and all I needed to do was take a warm shower.
The problem was, I couldn't even manage to stand up so I was reduced to sitting on the tub floor, letting hot water pool around my feet.
I immediately went back to bed after unwillingly allowing the ibuprofen in my stomach...well, to no longer be in my stomach. I like to think that maybe yesterday's anxiety went with it.
I slept for three extra hours, tossing and turning like illness often brings on
and until now, I have only left my bed to make hot apple cider tea and much on pepper crackers.

This has left more than enough time for reflection on the year and while it was better than 2012 proved to be, 2013 was by no means, my best year.
That being said I am making my new years resolution now.
Yes, I know that new years resolutions are practically created to be broken but this is something so simple, so obvious, I am determined to make it a part of my life.

I want to cherish people more this year and all other years.
Loss often comes so suddenly and without comprehension, this I know all too well.
I am so lucky to have such wonderful people in my life and I know that I will meet many more from this point on and they deserve to be told how important they all are.
I want to hug people more because I like hugs and some people just aren't hugged enough.
I want to trust people more because I have become too scared to put my faith in anyone that I have bottled up too much.
I want to cherish myself more this year. That sounds stuck up but I think maybe it is a lesson everyone needs to learn in their lifetime: the more you respect yourself, the more others will respect you and you can in turn, respect others. If I learn to love myself, maybe I will be better at loving the right people.

So that's my plan and I'm rather proud of it. I hope I won't be alone in this.